Strength…. Ursula T 19 November 2020
I felt like writing today and the word that popped into my head was strength. So let’s talk about this for a bit.
The Cambridge dictionary definition states it as:
strength noun (POWER)
B2 [ U ]the ability to do things that need a lot of physical or mental effort:She had the strength and stamina to take the lead and win the gold medal.Admitting you’ve made a mistake is a sign of strength, not weakness.He showed great strength of character when he refused to accept the bribes.We will struggle on, drawing our strength from the courage of others.Much of the country’s military strength lies in its missile force.
I’m sure most, if not all of you know about my strokes by now and the physical difficulties I experience from it.
I’m sure you would guess that mentally and emotionally, this is not easy on any given day?
I’m kind of bored of my stroke story so let’s rather talk about strength.
Nearly everyone I meet, or everyone I know personally, tells me I’m the strongest women they know. And while this feels good to me (most of the time), I wish I could just say, but I’m not, I’m not always strong.
I have to fight every single day to find strength. Strength to get up, because physically it is exhausting!!!
Finding the Strength to deal with my emotions and maintain a calm, positive attitude full of passion is also exhausting!!!
Finding the strength to hold a strong mental state to keep going, to be inspiring, to grow my business with clarity and focus, to overcome the physical challenges day in and day out (for 8 years now, which is more than 2920 days) is exhausting!!!
Finding the strength to still smile and laugh, while my heart is broken over what has happened, is exhausting!!!
So, no, I am not always strong. But here is what I do know, I am probably the strongest woman I know, I get stronger every day (whether that is physical, mental or emotional) and every single woman I have photographed here in studio, has strength which more often than not, completely mesmerizes me, because in that moment, I think “wow, she is so powerful and so beautiful”. I also realise in that moment that maybe my own strength is inspiring. This helps me find more strength. I am grateful for this.
On the days that I am not feeling strong, I simply don’t get up for the day and spend that day and the next and the next (if I need to) in deep meditation, which I firmly believe has helped me heal so much inside of me. I have so much fun doing this, this is where I dream and plan and think and connect to both my pain and my healing.
If you want to know what meditation I do, SRT healing meditation by Alexander as well as Abraham hicks who is mind blowing – take a listen and maybe it can help you too.
After I have allowed myself to just relax and go within, new strength comes to me and I find my power within, to believe, to hope, to laugh, to smile, to love, to take action, to enjoy the moment. It’s quite beautiful actually. I tune in to less resistant thoughts of power and then I’m up saying things like “I am Ursula T and I’ve got this!” “I am strong, I am powerful, I am worthy, I am successful, I am love, I am light, I am unbelievable, I am happy, and I am so in love with my life right now”
This is how I do it my lovelies.
Yes I am strong. So are you, you just sometimes, don’t need to be strong and give yourself a break, take it easy, go within, love yourself and know all is well and you are exactly where you are meant to be and then watch how your life changes for the better.
Sending love and strength to all who is needing it right now.
I thought this post needed a whole bunch of portraits of the strong, powerful women I have had the honour of spending time with. I am so grateful for my life right now
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You are strong, and capable. I would love to photograph your story